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It feels like so long since
I let myself think about
Being alone, taking it slow-
I’m talking out loud,
Weighing the ways that things could work out
If I fell out of daily routines
Of pacing around, kicking the ground
Did you not think to give me a chance to explain
How lonely it gets in the emptiness?
Now I’m to blame
For breaking our home into two,
But I just can’t help but blame you
Upright in bed writing sentences, unedited
Paper to pen,
What are synonyms for "regret"?
Sunrise and yet I can’t get the words out of my head
Pictures from then,
But, now what will fill these frames instead?
How could you think this would end well?
I’ve been through Hell
And all you repeat is “Who gets the couch?”
I see it now
Despite being sad,
In the end, I never liked your friends
Despite being sad,
In the end, I never liked your friends
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Messed It Up
03:10
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“Wait”,
Is all I had to say
When the words we used
Went from “you” and “me”
Subtly to “we”
Space is all I asked to take,
Though, it gets confusing when I say
I can’t leave this place
Days,
I slept them all away
Words come in the night,
Pen on candle light, cursing on the page
I’m prone to make mistakes,
But I never thought that I would mess it up this way
I’ve messed it up
Trace fragments of you, babe
Loose under the bed,
Loosening my head
I feel short of breath
Sedate,
Erase with razorblades
But nothing can subdue how I feel for you
I’m prone to make mistakes,
But I never thought that I would mess it up this way
I’ve messed it up
I messed it up
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Lose My Mind
03:46
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My time is up
Oh, Lord, it’s been tough
Making above this poverty, minimum-wage stuff
'Cause I don’t want to hang around
Waiting tables, pleasing crowds
If I can’t make it
Then Lord forgive the sins I’ll sin
It’s only bound when I begin to lose my mind
All of my pay
Has been going in the drain
Keeping this dream that I’ve been chasing afloat
But if my luck doesn’t change
Then I’ll start acting strange
‘Cause I don’t want to wait around
Cleaning counters, mopping grounds
If I can’t make it
Then Lord forgive the sins I’ll sin
It’s only bound when I begin to lose my mind
‘Cause I don’t want to sit around
Counting my blessings out loud
I’m one more weekend closing shift
Away from acting savage, jumping ship
If I can’t make it
Then Lord forgive the sins I’ll sin
It’s only bound when I begin to lose my mind
‘Cause I’m losing my mind
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Make It Out
03:54
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I'm holding out for a reason
To get out of bed
I heard it clears your head
It's months like these
That hold you captive
In the rain I'm drenched
But drought in my defense
I'm stuck sleeping on my stomach
Dreaming lucid
Thinking I'm awake
But in this place I feel so certain
That I'll make it out okay
I'm searching for some shelter
Where I can disappear
And rid myself of fear
And out on the horizon
When I shed my skin
My life could then begin
But I'm stuck sipping on my pillow
Shouting nonesense in and out of wake
But in this place I feel so certain
That I'll make it out okay
I'm holding out for a reason
To get out of bed
I heard it clears your head
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Pale
03:34
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I’ve been cold
And I’ve been blue
I’ve been cruel, unkind, untrue
But that don’t compare to how I've treated you
I have tattled
I have tale-d
I have laughed when others failed
But even so, I chose to go
And I grow pale
I’ve been late to every dance
Cutting in to the next act
But my one regret was
Treating you so bad
I have tattled
I have tale-d
I have laughed when others failed
But even so, I chose to go
And I grow pale
I grow pale
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Someone to Keep You Warm
02:18
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It must be lonely when it’s cold
And your seventh floor apartment
Has a subtle scent of mould
I heard this city’s scarce for work
And the air is kind of hard to breathe in deep from all this smoke
Oh, well
You’re having fun
Living life the way you want
The only thing that’s missing
Is someone to keep you warm
I guess this city never sleeps
And I swear I heard a gunshot echo through the narrow street
But at least inside we’re safe
In your seventh floor apartment
Where tonight be both behave
Oh well, You seem okay
There’s nothing back home anyways
Besides your memories
And someone to keep you warm
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The Judge
05:00
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I used to be
The one you held at night
We’d breathe in deep
Exhale to still and quiet
You’d wake, I peak
Wait for your restless feet to start tiptoeing
Towards the bathroom sink
I used to know
The way you’d say hello
Peck on my check,
“Good morning my dear sweet-“
In the mirror I’m thin
Stripped of oxygen
What will be underneath
If I try to shed this skin?
I’m fixing what’s bent out of shape
And I’ll keep it in the back where I know it’s safe
But what’s a loss if nothing’s gained?
And who am I to judge when a line’s not straight?
Who am I to judge?
I strip the sheets
Clean out the cabinets
Sweep underneath the places we would sit
What’s left to fix?
In all this empty space, your fingerprints keep getting in my way
In the mirror I’m thin
Stripped of oxygen
What will be underneath
If I try to shed this skin
I’m fixing what’s bent out of shape
And I’ll keep it in the back where I know it’s safe
But what’s a loss if nothing’s gained?
And who am I to judge when a line’s not straight?
Who am I to judge?
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