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Benevolence

by Alexandria Maillot

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1.
It feels like so long since I let myself think about Being alone, taking it slow- I’m talking out loud, Weighing the ways that things could work out If I fell out of daily routines Of pacing around, kicking the ground Did you not think to give me a chance to explain How lonely it gets in the emptiness? Now I’m to blame For breaking our home into two, But I just can’t help but blame you Upright in bed writing sentences, unedited Paper to pen, What are synonyms for "regret"? Sunrise and yet I can’t get the words out of my head Pictures from then, But, now what will fill these frames instead? How could you think this would end well? I’ve been through Hell And all you repeat is “Who gets the couch?” I see it now Despite being sad, In the end, I never liked your friends Despite being sad, In the end, I never liked your friends
2.
Messed It Up 03:10
“Wait”, Is all I had to say When the words we used Went from “you” and “me” Subtly to “we” Space is all I asked to take, Though, it gets confusing when I say I can’t leave this place Days, I slept them all away Words come in the night, Pen on candle light, cursing on the page I’m prone to make mistakes, But I never thought that I would mess it up this way I’ve messed it up Trace fragments of you, babe Loose under the bed, Loosening my head I feel short of breath Sedate, Erase with razorblades But nothing can subdue how I feel for you I’m prone to make mistakes, But I never thought that I would mess it up this way I’ve messed it up I messed it up
3.
Lose My Mind 03:46
My time is up Oh, Lord, it’s been tough Making above this poverty, minimum-wage stuff 'Cause I don’t want to hang around Waiting tables, pleasing crowds If I can’t make it Then Lord forgive the sins I’ll sin It’s only bound when I begin to lose my mind All of my pay Has been going in the drain Keeping this dream that I’ve been chasing afloat But if my luck doesn’t change Then I’ll start acting strange ‘Cause I don’t want to wait around Cleaning counters, mopping grounds If I can’t make it Then Lord forgive the sins I’ll sin It’s only bound when I begin to lose my mind ‘Cause I don’t want to sit around Counting my blessings out loud I’m one more weekend closing shift Away from acting savage, jumping ship If I can’t make it Then Lord forgive the sins I’ll sin It’s only bound when I begin to lose my mind ‘Cause I’m losing my mind
4.
Make It Out 03:54
I'm holding out for a reason To get out of bed I heard it clears your head It's months like these That hold you captive In the rain I'm drenched But drought in my defense I'm stuck sleeping on my stomach Dreaming lucid Thinking I'm awake But in this place I feel so certain That I'll make it out okay I'm searching for some shelter Where I can disappear And rid myself of fear And out on the horizon When I shed my skin My life could then begin But I'm stuck sipping on my pillow Shouting nonesense in and out of wake But in this place I feel so certain That I'll make it out okay I'm holding out for a reason To get out of bed I heard it clears your head
5.
Pale 03:34
I’ve been cold And I’ve been blue I’ve been cruel, unkind, untrue But that don’t compare to how I've treated you I have tattled I have tale-d I have laughed when others failed But even so, I chose to go And I grow pale I’ve been late to every dance Cutting in to the next act But my one regret was Treating you so bad I have tattled I have tale-d I have laughed when others failed But even so, I chose to go And I grow pale I grow pale
6.
It must be lonely when it’s cold And your seventh floor apartment Has a subtle scent of mould I heard this city’s scarce for work And the air is kind of hard to breathe in deep from all this smoke Oh, well You’re having fun Living life the way you want The only thing that’s missing Is someone to keep you warm I guess this city never sleeps And I swear I heard a gunshot echo through the narrow street But at least inside we’re safe In your seventh floor apartment Where tonight be both behave Oh well, You seem okay There’s nothing back home anyways Besides your memories And someone to keep you warm
7.
The Judge 05:00
I used to be The one you held at night We’d breathe in deep Exhale to still and quiet You’d wake, I peak Wait for your restless feet to start tiptoeing Towards the bathroom sink I used to know The way you’d say hello Peck on my check, “Good morning my dear sweet-“ In the mirror I’m thin Stripped of oxygen What will be underneath If I try to shed this skin? I’m fixing what’s bent out of shape And I’ll keep it in the back where I know it’s safe But what’s a loss if nothing’s gained? And who am I to judge when a line’s not straight? Who am I to judge? I strip the sheets Clean out the cabinets Sweep underneath the places we would sit What’s left to fix? In all this empty space, your fingerprints keep getting in my way In the mirror I’m thin Stripped of oxygen What will be underneath If I try to shed this skin I’m fixing what’s bent out of shape And I’ll keep it in the back where I know it’s safe But what’s a loss if nothing’s gained? And who am I to judge when a line’s not straight? Who am I to judge?

about

sweat, blood, tears, countless hours and a whole lot of love went into this record. I am so grateful to every single human who participated in the making of this album. this whole experience has been a dream come true from collaborating with some of the most talented and beautiful musicians and working with the most incredible team. this album is for everyone who is sick of being overlooked, for those tired of working underpaid jobs; it is the big middle finger whenever anyone asks you "are you still doing that music thing?" thank you for listening/sharing/supporting in whatever capacity you choose. this album is for you

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released November 22, 2019

Recorded at Indica Records Studio Plateau in Montreal, QC
Produced by Samuel Hewson Woywitka and Alexandria Maillot
Engineering by Samuel Hewson Woywitka
Mixing by Ryan Worsley (Echoplant Studios)
Mastering by Philip Shaw Bova (Bova Lab Studio)
Additional engineering by Ryan Worsley
Additional drum editing by Stefan Norware and Matt Di Pomponio
Additional vocal tracking by Luca Fogale

Alexandria Maillot / vocals, guitar, piano, synth (1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7)
Daniel Baxter / guitar (1, 5)
Dylan Phillips / string arrangement (1, 5, 7)
Esca Quartet (Amélie Lamontagne, Edith Fitzgerald, Sarah Martineau, Camille Paquette-Roystrings) / strings (1, 5, 7)
Isaac Symonds / guitar, synth, additional textures (1, 3, 4, 7) background vocals (3)
Marito Marques / percussion (7)
Mishka Klein / bass (1, 2, 3)
Tom Tartarin / bass (5)
Volodia Schneider / drums (1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7)

Music & Lyrics by Alexandria Maillot
*except The Judge, co-written with Luca Fogale

Album artwork by Danica Olders
Cover photo by Pier Alexandre Gagné

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